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Sooo... Yet AGAIN I have lost my 'normal' job... The company, mych in the way of Haggen decided to pull that SAME crap about 'You're interests just don't match the company image' and 'Maybe you should fine a more fitting job for someone like you, with your interests.' as well as making up some COMPLETE bullshit about me 'Always being over five minutes in between EVERY call.'

I fucking kid you not.

I'm NOT on drugs, I'm showing up to work, CLEAN and well dressed, sure my hair's frizzy much in the way of 80's rock stars, but DAMNIT, I'm a person, too!
>.<

Fuck corporate america, fuck you you fucking fucks. Burn in hell, All of you. Seriously.
(Starting with that bitch from A-CTI, please?)

So yes.


... Honest question, though I SERIOUSLY doubt I'll get much in the way of answers... *sigh*

Anyway... Stripping. Maybe other 'Adult' stuff, as it were... _I_ don't think I'd be able to market myself well enough for it, but it sounds fun for now, and easy and a good way to make spare $$... So I can fucking well afford RENT for me and my friend I just imported from Michigan.
Fucking rent.
Anyway... Some rather uninspired pix from over a year ago can be found under my pix on my MySpace page http://www.myspace.com/candice1796 ... they are boring and fully clothed and all that... AND they are from back when I weighed 145 lbs... I'm down to just over 115 at the moment... >.< And that's 115 FULLY DRESSED... in jeans... so likely I'm barely 110-112... >.< Again. *huff*
At least it's NOT 95 lbs again? that would SUCK. >.<

So yes... not that I EXPECT any answers from anyone... but how well do any of you think I'd do as a dancer/stripper?
I naturally have a VERY low opinion of myself, always have, but all this shit these fucking companies are putting me through is even MORE stressful and depressing and damaging to my opinions of myself... I'm not the most stable cookie in the box, ya know?
Of COURSE you do, most all of ya know me IRL. *amused*

I already have a small small small side job... Doing photo/video stuff for an 'Adult'/Kink site... That's been fun so far, I have my second photo/video shoot scheduled for later this month. (Not that any of you would, but DON'T fuckin' pester me about it, yes I'm being safe and know what I'm doing, It's REALLY fun and pays nicely. And did I mention REALLY fun?!)

But I Just. Don't. Know.

I keep second guessing myself. I'm so insecure it makes me sick. >.<

I can't help but feel that this is some cry for someone to validate my existance. Probably is. Again. *sighs* Go figure.