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Work in the morning... ick...

Might be hanging out with Nicole & Julie on the 4th, not sure...
Haveing coffee or dinner with Jax and Caleb (and maybe Kenji?) Wed Night around 8-ish...
Had tentative plans for fri/sat-ish... not sure...
And work Mon/Wed/Fri...

huh...

The cats are glad to have me home, nibblett hasn't left my side sence...

Have alot on my mind reacently... About alot of things, you know, Life, The Universe and all that, All the wierd crap that goes though a 20 year olds mind... And times that by the factor of 'me' and you get one hell of a headache...
Well, I do anyway...

...Still, I feel like I am missing something in life... *sigh* something big... It and a few other things have been keeping me up at night thinking about them... A Lot of stuff on my mind, some of it important, some not, some crap I wish and want so badly it hurts but sadly will never be...

Also, the depressing realization that I'll be 21 on Feb 12th and I am still liveing at home...
And combine that with the fact that I'm soo depressed and confused about my life that I just want to curl up in my closet and cry.

Sad, isn't it? Somehow I feel that I should know what I want to do in life but I am depressed that I don't, And there is alot of crap in life I want to do something about or change but I don't have the backbone/desire/drive to fix...

huh...

Off to sleep and then go to work again and wounder my deep depressing 'teen-angst'-ish thoughts...

Maybe it is all from being sick for too long, or being alone at the moment... I donno...
...something in the water maybe?